Monday, March 2, 2020

Health Check-In

I have been on the struggle bus the last couple of weeks.  My next weigh in will be Saturday, March 7th.  I put on a couple pounds, so I will be happy to get back to where I was.

I've been trying to figure out WHY I've been struggling.  There are a few mental issues, but I think I've pinned it down and I think it's more of a physical thing actually.

I've been working out a LOT the past 2 weeks.  I've taken 11 Barre classes in the past 14 days.  Which is going to become my new normal.  My goal is 6 classes per week.  But that's another story.

Whenever I work out more, I feel famished a LOT.  Which makes sense.  You need to eat more when you work out more.  But if you don't plan for it....it leads to disaster.  Like Friday.  I went to Barre at 6:00 a.m.  Then I didn't eat much at work the entire day.  So THEN I got home from work and was starving.  I started grazing.  Then husband came home and I asked him if he was hungry and then we decided to order a pizza.  And pasta for me.  Sigh.  And THEN I proceeded to eat my ENTIRE (large) portion of pasta AND the garlic bread that came with it.  I ate WAY past my 'full' feeling.  And then I felt miserable for at least 2 hours afterwards.  Both physically and mentally.    

So this weekend, I bought some chicken salad cups from Costco and a big bag of celery.  I washed it, cut it all up and put it right at eye level in the fridge.  That way when I come home from work starving I'll have a go-to.  I'm also going to divide some oatmeal into ziplocks for an after work snack.  After work is my downfall.  I don't have an issue with eating/snacking at work OR eating/snacking late night.  But between 3:30 - 4:30?  I can go to town.  I'm also going to start immediately making some tea when I get home.  I would like that to become a routine.  I also want to stay off my phone from the time I get home until around 7:30 or 8:00.  Because what happens is that I get on my phone, start scrolling/wasting time and then I want a snack to go with it.  Which turns into a meal.  Which turns into 2 hours of total wasted time.

So those are going to be my baby steps so far.  And I AM feeling better today, both mentally and physically.  Onward!

Monday, February 24, 2020

02.22.20 Health Check-In

Loss this week:  -1.2
January 2020 loss:  -2.7
February 2020 loss:  -4.6

Total 2019 Weight Loss:  38.3
Total 2020 Weight Loss:    7.3

TOTAL WEIGHT LOSS:       -45.6

First things first.  I'm changing my weigh-in day to Saturday.  I tend to use most of my weekly points on Friday and Saturday and that usually doesn't lead to a good weigh-in on Sunday.    

Secondly....I need to do better.  Yes, I had a decent loss.  And yes, my February numbers are looking better than January.  But I can do better.  I've been more detailed with my tracking, but...I can do better.  I tend to not track the 3 bites of trail mix or the Fiber One treat that I ate at 9:00 p.m. because I was hungry.  Stuff like that.

I also need to drink WAY more water.  I was doing so good with a gallon a day and now it's probably half that.

Oh well.  I'm a work in progress.

Treats I enjoyed this week:

Tacos (twice)
Chips & guac (which I didn't track)
One donut
Wine (2 glasses)

Monday, February 17, 2020

02.16.20 Health Check-In

Loss this week:  +0.6
January 2020 loss:  -2.7
February 2020 loss:  -3.4

Total 2019 Weight Loss:  38.3
Total 2020 Weight Loss:    6.1

TOTAL WEIGHT LOSS:       -44.4

I gained .6 this week.  Which I am completely okay with.  I think my body is still re-hydrating.  I seem to be hanging on to every bit of water I take in.  Plus, I hit Barre as soon as I got back (after a few days off) and so my muscles are sore and hanging on to water.  

But that's okay!  I'm not letting the scale mess with my head.  Like I said last week, it all evens out in the end.    

Wednesday, February 12, 2020

02.10.20 Health Check-In

Loss this week:  -3.0
January 2020 loss:  -2.7
February 2020 loss:  -4.0

Total 2019 Weight Loss:  38.3
Total 2020 Weight Loss:    6.7

TOTAL WEIGHT LOSS:       -45

I was out of town Thursday - Tuesday.  I weighed myself at my mom's on Monday morning.  

My large loss is all because I got sick and didn't eat for 48 hours and was (and still kind of am) COMPLETELY dehydrated.  I'm working on re-hydrating myself this week.  So maybe I'll have a gain next week.  But that's totally okay!  It all evens out in the end.    

Monday, February 3, 2020

02.02.20 Health Check-In

Loss this week:  -1.0
January 2020 loss:  -2.7
February 2020 loss:  -1.0

Total 2019 Weight Loss:  38.3
Total 2020 Weight Loss:    3.7

TOTAL WEIGHT LOSS:       -42

Lots of thoughts this week.  Yes, I had a loss.  Yes, that's better than a gain.  But I have GOT to start doing better.  I am disappointed that I only lost 2.7 in January.  I see a pattern here that I want to change:

August 2019:         -11.2
September 2019:   -9.1
October 2019:       -6.8
November 2019:    -6.9
December 2019:    -4.3
January 2020:        -2.7

My weight loss each month is declining.  I'd like to get back to losing at least 6 pounds a month. 

I totally think this is possible.  The problem is not my metabolism, my age, my water retention, etc.  It is ME.  I haven't been tracking honestly, and sometimes I'll skip tracking all together.  Obviously, that isn't working.  I know my body is capable of losing more weight than 2.7 pounds a month.  I don't think it's unrealistic to set a goal of 6 pounds a month.  That's 1.5 per week.  I would be thrilled with that.

So no more dishonest tracking.  No more 'free Sundays'.  No more excuses!!!  

Friday, January 31, 2020

January Reads (11)




Two stars:           eh, it was okay
Three stars:        liked it
Four stars:          really, really liked it
Five stars:          loved it

1-Star (0)

2-Star (0)

3-Star (4)
***The Overdue Life of Amy Byler (Fiction, K. Harms)
I started reading this in San Francisco last month and then life happened and I finally picked it back up again.  It’s a little fluffy and there were not nearly enough specific book references for my taste, but it was still an enjoyable read.

***The Island Of Sea Women (Fiction, L. See)
A tragic piece of historical fiction.  It was a bit too long for me and dragged a lot in the middle.

***The Dry (Fiction, J. Harper)
I think I need to READ this one instead of listening to it.  Because I actually really liked it.  But I was listening at work and had a lot going on and I think I missed a lot.  Plus, I read that there’s a lot of flashbacks that you only really know are flashbacks by the italicized lettering in the book.  Which would explain why I was confused a lot.  I need a do-over!

***The Vile Village (Fiction, L. Snicket) Book #7
This one was pretty dark.  Still funny though.

4-Star (4)
****The Stationery Shop (Fiction, M. Kamali)
This was a slow read, but definitely worth it.

****The Austere Academy (Fiction, L. Snicket) Book #5
These never disappoint, ESPECIALLY on audio.

****The Ersatz Elevator (Fiction, L. Snicket) Book #6
Laugh-out-loud funny.

****American Dirt (FICTION, Jeanine Cummins)
Oh the controversy.  SO MUCH controversy surrounding this book.  A lot of people love it, a lot of people hate it.  And I knew that going in.  I had read all the reviews on Goodreads and yes, I still chose to read this book.  And I can see both sides.

It is the story of Lydia and her son Luca who need to leave Acapulco, Mexico, after their entire family is slaughtered by the Cartel (this is not a spoiler, this is mentioned on the book jacket).  This happens in the first chapter.

Lydia and Luca are scared for their life, so their goal is to get to the United States.  They are not migrating to the U.S. because they want a ‘better life’, they are migrating because they are actually on the run from someone.

The controversy:  the author, Jeanine Cummins, is not Mexican.  She is Latinx, as she was born in Spain and also had a Puerto Rican grandmother.  She also married an undocumented Irish immigrant.  If you read her author’s note, she discusses the EXTENSIVE research she did for years before writing this book.

I don’t think that someone has to personally experience something to write about it.  Did every author that wrote about World War II, the holocaust, PTSD, etc. personally experience those things?  No.  And to think that that is a requirement for writing a FICTION novel is ridiculous to me.  But, the author MUST do extensive research.  Last year I read a fiction novel about a woman married to a veteran who had PTSD.  IT was horribly executed.  The author appeared to do ZERO research about what it’s like to live with someone with military PTSD.  Did I think the author needed to be in that exact situation and be married to a veteran with PTSD in order to accurately write about it?  ABSOLUTELY NOT.  Did I think she should have done extensive research and talked/interviewed multiple wives with PTSD husbands before she wrote the book?  YES YES YES.

Colson Whitehead stated, ‘you can write about anything, just don’t screw it up.’  The author states in her author’s note, “I do know Luca and Lydia.  I know their lives.  Because I know grief.  I know trauma.  Yes, Luca and his Mami happen to be Mexican, but they could be anyone.  They could be Syrian or Romanian or Haitian.  They are human beings.”  I’ve read loads of reviews on this book by people of all nationalities.  Some loved it, some hated it, some refused to read it.  The ‘loved it’ was a mix of people.  White, Mexican (yup), African American, and others.

This book will make you uncomfortable and it is a difficult read.  It made me realize how much I don’t know about immigration issues, especially living in a border state.  I thought about it ALL DAY when I wasn’t at home reading it at night.  I took it with me everywhere in case I had an extra 5 or 10 minutes to spare.  The writing is excellent.  The ONLY reason I gave it 4 stars instead of 5 is because there were a few slow parts in the middle of the book.

****The Hostile Hospital (Fiction, L. Snicket) Book #8
So funny.

5-Star (2)
*****How Not to Die (Non-Fiction, M. Greger)
Hands down the best book on nutrition I’ve ever read.  I couldn’t put it down!

*****Such a Fun Age (Fiction, K. Reid)
It’s hard to believe this is her debut novel.  I FLEW through this book.  It reads like a ‘light’ book, but tackles some extremely important topics.  Phenomenal.


Total Books Read: 11 (10 Fiction, 1 Non-Fiction)

DNF (2):
Night of Miracles (Fiction, E. Berg) – I was hoping I would like this one, because it is a bit of a follow-up to ‘The Story of Arthur Trulove’, but there was WAYYYYY to many characters and intertwining stories for me to keep paying attention.

Dear Edward (Fiction) – this one got weird REALLY quickly.  I even flipped through it to see if maybe it was an isolated incident, and nope.  Bummer.

Monday, January 27, 2020

01.26.20 Health Check-In

TOTAL 2019 WEIGHT LOSS:  38.3

01/05/20 loss:  .5                (TOTAL -38.8)

01/12/20 loss:  1.4              (TOTAL -40.2)

01/19/20 loss:  .4                (TOTAL -40.6)

01/26/20 loss:  .4                (TOTAL -41.0)

TOTAL 2020 WEIGHT LOSS:  2.7

More details next week.....(too busy!)

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